It has been a few days since I wrote, and I’ve just finished a project that I want to talk about with you. My new video is out on YouTube now, and my feelings are it turned out pretty darn good. It started with an idea, about the meaning of being lost, and finding one’s self again.
It finishes with the idea that life is short, and we have to take care of ourselves, and others. Really there are some things I wish to have known much sooner. Yet, life is what it is. We all learn sooner or later, some of us don’t learn until it’s almost too late.
Don’t make the mistakes I did, life is too short. Make good use of your time, make good use of your life. You want to be a lot better off than I am at my age. Being forty-six, and having seen some rough decades of life, I can tell you; be wise.
Here is the video embedded from YouTube:
In The Flux – My Digital Chaos
This video turned out fairly well. It is a short project, and shouldn’t be too painful to watch. You might have to deal with my making music; however, I’m sure you can endure the three minutes of video.
Not much going on, life is. Things are. Trying to deal with that. Maybe tomorrow will be better than today was? That would be very good indeed! Not sure what project will be waiting for me tomorrow.
Maybe I will get to sleep in? That would be nice. See my other project, My Day to see my days in photos. You can view the list view and see the collection of the days I have completed.
Life is not always pretty, and to keep our minds in good condition, sometimes it is necessary to do some maintenance. Recently I was thinking about what qualities I want to have and seek in others.
Thus, this article was born from the thoughts of how to beautify my mind. They say beauty is in the eye of the beholder, however sometimes, life makes a mess. So it is important to clean the messes up; sometimes after yourself, sometimes after others.
I went searching for what others had written, I found this article: Traits of a beautiful mind, by JC Wandemberg Ph.D., he has a mind, and the ability to reason, however the article’s focus is on low level subjects. Really his article would be the foundation of this article.
My goal is to provide something a bit more high level, an overview of some of the subjects that matter to me. Really having a beautiful mind is about how you adapt, and grow. There is a lot more than that to it, what you put into your mind matters, and having a beautiful mind is about cleaning up the mess after yourself and others.
There are some subjects that put beauty back into life, some of them are not only necessary, but essential.
Music is an important part of life. Really the music one has in their life, makes all the difference in the world. You need music that makes you feel something, that makes you believe, and brings hope.
Music adds to the beauty of life. It can bring a lot of enjoyment to living, and makes life more interesting. Having a good selection of music matters, and being able to pick what you want to listen to, when you want it, is important.
Having art in your life is important. There are many branches of art that you can experience, and sometimes you have to create your own. Being creative is a sign of intelligence. Both having art in your life, and creating your own art matters a lot.
Art gives you perspective, and new ideas. It helps to show something someone else believes is beautiful. And really having a beautiful mind is about seeing the beauty in life.
Having some philosophy in your life matters. It helps set standards, and a base for your future self. It can give you a foundation that makes life worth living. When you live by a philosophy that makes your life better, then you have something solid to exist upon.
When you have a selection to pick from, and have content that makes your life feel hopeful, and gives you peace of mind, there is nothing like that. Really reading books is a window into the experience of others, both what they find beautiful and what they find to be a problem in life. Reading books opens your mind to new ways of thinking, and shows you a path of thinking that will add enjoyment to your life.
The theater is a place where magic happens, regardless of if you like watching the TV, or actually going to see a live performance, these experiences make life better, as they give you something that will open your eyes to life.
There is a feeling about seeing a live performance that makes you feel something, and the good ones always give you something to think about.
Without love, life isn’t worth much. Having some love in your life is going to make a huge difference in your life. Today, all too often people say they love someone, even when they don’t actually feel anything. That is a problem. To really feel love, that makes you have a positive emotion from the experience matters an awful lot.
Having some real, true love will make your life worthy of living. When you feel loved, and can show love to others, this is simply not replaceable. There is nothing like that. It will improve your life, make life worth living, and add enjoyment to your life.
Being kind, even when others don’t know how to be such; this is really important. They say, you reap what you sow. My belief is that is true, thus; if you are kind, you will receive kindness in return. Being kind is a wise choice, because you will see the benefits from doing such in the ways others treat you.
Don’t fail to be kind to others, and yourself. This will add to the beauty of your life, make your life better, and make others lives more beautiful. This is a win/win situation. Don’t neglect being kind to others. You will thank yourself for doing such.
Having patience in times that are tough, it will make your life better, because not everything happens right away. You have to be patient, with yourself, and others. Having the right frame of mind to be patient matters, because when you have patience, you can find the ability to get into the zone, and have those magic moments. If you are not patient, then it robs you of your happiness, and the moments you could be enjoying life.
What you put into your mind matters, sometimes you have to take the trash out, and always plant gardens in your heart, mind, and soul. It is easier to plant gardens and take the weeds out, then to allow your life to decay into wretchedness. Maintain your beautiful mind, and reap the rewards of having a life worthy of living.
Life is not always pretty, and you have to put some beauty back into life. Because if people only take, then there will be a shortage someday, you have to be willing to put something back into the life we have.
Practice making life great. If you want today to be better than yesterday, you have to take action to making life better. Do what you can, there is the power to change your life, for the better. If you believe it is possible, then you can do it.
You have to get a grip. No one reads anymore. They couldn’t care. They want mindless thoughts, with no real purpose. Damn cats if you ask me. Life is. Things are. Deal with it. Not much going on.
Been working on projects, been stuck alone for a week. It wasn’t as productive as it could have been, had to dog watch. They like a lot of attention. They seem to be full of it. Taking care of two boxers, almost a full time job.
Bored. Not much going on. Life is. They don’t care. Wasn’t a problem they wanted to solve. They seem busy with other stuff, these days; no one gives a damn. Bored with the status quo.
Life has to get better, it really does. Tired of the way this is. No one to talk with, nor spend time with me. They seem to be perfectly content with the way this is. It doesn’t bother them for me to be alone, and isolated like I am. Not only that, there is the other problem: It seems like everyone is ghosting me. Damn it.
Tired of the world like it is. They could have been kind. You know? Tired of wasting my effort on people that won’t listen.
I’ve lost weight. I am down to 167, which is great! About time, been heavy far too long. Glad to see the weight coming off like it should.
Mercury is out of retrograde. Thank goodness, that is over now. Maybe life will get moving in the right direction now? Maybe! I am bored right now, thus writing for the enjoyment of writing, without regard to real purpose or having something real important to say.
It does seem, to me, even if I had something important to say; no one would listen. They seem to have no way to value my effort, as though it doesn’t mean much of anything to them.
Bored with the status of my life, bored with the way this life has been treating me; life has been kicking my dog, going to have to do something about that damn cat!
Not much going on. I feel better now, mercury is out of retrograde, and it was a rough few weeks with that one. Maybe other people will lighten up now, and life will start to be better again? One can hope!
I’ve been working on a few projects, some of them are coming alone rather well. My project for my day in photos; it is done, been posting everyday to the site. If you want to check it out: My Day.
My other project, Lord knows; it needs a lot of help. It is a good idea, but it will require a lot of development to reach the status I’m looking for. Seems my projects have all met their maker. Wish they could meet you too!
I’m bored. Not much going on. Been isolated a lot, I mean; an awful lot the last month has been rough going. I am productive, but my social life is not looking all that good. I’m not really sure how to fix the damn problem. You would think, someone would have cared by now? Seems it’s a pity that life is like it is. It could have been really good. You know?
Life has to change, for the better. It has been rough going, the last twenty years; they have all been rough. It has made me tough, it might have also made me mean, but that is subjective.
Not much going on, I cooked a meal tonight. Roast beef melt with cheese, horseradish, and onion. It was good, I ate it before I could photograph it, I guess that I wasn’t thinking when I sat down to eat it, because I forgot to take a photo. These digital lifestyles can get difficult to keep up with, after a while, I guess you get into the habit.
I had other things on my mind, and not going to elaborate on that.
Bored! Life is, Things are. Trying to find some way to deal with that concept. It is easy to deal with, if you have the right frame of mind. Sometimes, it helps to be accepting of the situation, that things are the way that they are, and deal with it.
Still, I have some parts of my life, I would really like to see change for the better. I’m not sure, it seems my dreams have become stale, and I’m working on finding some new dreams. I’ve been avoiding making music for a few months now, I would like to get back into the groove; but it seems a ways off.
The dogs are happy, if life wasn’t kicking them. Going to have to do something about that cat! Bring your dog, he can play the wolf for the evening. We have two spoiled doggies, that could use some time with another doggie.
Bored. I’ve been putting off writing for a month now, mostly because; no one reads, regardless of how much effort I put into it, or how well I’m writing, it seems no one cares anymore.
I had hoped that my writing would have proved my sanity, somehow, that seems impossible. They don’t give a damn about my effort. Pity, I wanted my life better, and I wanted it a long time ago.
I’ve lost weight, I am now down to about 167, which I am very happy about. Its starting to feel good to be thin again. It has been twenty years since I was down to this weight. I’m glad it has started coming off. It is a big relief to be losing weight.
My hair is long these days, and I am happier than I have been in fifteen years. That is doing really very well, from where I’ve been, I can say that I’ve come an awful long ways from where I was.
This photo was from a few weeks ago. My hair has gotten long, much longer than it has ever been. That is for sure. I keep the sides short, and the back short too. It is almost 12″ on top. I think its a nice look. Now, if I could only get a job, I need a job man.
People sometimes act in confusing ways. It seems there is no rhyme or reason to some of the stuff they do. So in an effort to be perfectly clear, about something that I want; I’m going to spell it out for you.
I want to be respected for my mind. No that is not a typo. I think my mind is worthy of being respected. There are things in life, that I understand better than most; and while I may not be getting credit for that; you should at least respect the fact that my mind can be brilliant at times.
While you may not doubt any belief that my mind could be anything other than worthless, keep in mind; some of the greatest minds in history were mad as hats. There is no reason that when I’m lucid and thinking clearly that my mind isn’t one of the greats. It is only your own belief that I have no value which gets in the way of seeing me different.
It would be nice, during the times I am thinking clearly that people showed some level of respect for who i am. This world has some problems, don’t be part of the problem, you know?
Everyone needs love in their life. At some point, everyone needs someone. It’s just in our nature. No one has touched me in ten months. I don’t feel really loved, nor wanted. I certainly don’t feel like I have any value in this world.
If I did believe I have value, my feelings would be terribly hurt, because the way I’m being treated like worthless trash makes me feel that my value isn’t being seen.
Everyone needs someone sometimes. The human race has some problems. Some of them can be fixed. Love solves a lot of problems, if people will start showing some love. A lot of this mess could get a lot better for everyone.
Everyone needs kindness in their lives. A world that isn’t kind, can not be civilized. If kindness were a luxury good, no one would be able to afford to stay in this world. Start having some love, and start showing kindness to everyone. The shift has to start today. It has to start, because the problems will just spiral out of control if not kept in check.
Life has to get better for everyone. Everyone needs some love. Everyone needs some kindness. The times, they are changing. You are going to have to get tough, and still be kind and loving.
Life has to be made worth staying for. Too many people have had it rough. Life has to get better, at least being kind helps.
I want to be respected for my mind. I want to be shown love, and kindness. The world seriously lacks the qualities that make life worthy of living in this world. Life has to change for everyone, before it’s too late for the human race. Start today, make life better for everyone. Keep your heart, mind, and spirit in check, do what is good, right, and best for everyone.
Today’s post is about how to get a better nights sleep. One of the things I have been doing for about ten years now, is listening to classical music when I am sleeping at night.
This is very exciting. Going to sleep with classical music is a real thrill. Sometimes, the music is so exciting, it takes some practice to get to sleep; however, once you get used to it, there is nothing like it.
So Who Do You Listen To?
I have set classical playlist that I use when I’m going to sleep, and the playlist is set to loop so it will play all night long. Some of the artists on my playlist are:
Henrik Schwarz: Instruments
This album is so awesome. I have never heard music that sounds like this album. One of my all time favorites. This is the first album in my sleep playlist, it is about thirty minutes long; and I’m usually asleep by the end of this first album. This album is magic, pure and simple. It is a real thrill to listen to. One of my all time favorite classical albums to listen to.
You should check this album out, give a listen, and play it when you want to go to sleep. It is one of the best, and it has a great sound to it.
Héléne Grimaud – Bach: Piano Pieces
This album is great, it really is. I have been listening to this album for about ten years now. This always puts me in the mood, and its really exciting to go to sleep with this music playing. It makes sure, I’m about to have some great dreams at night.
This album is great for classical music. I can highly recommend this album to anyone that wants to hear great classical music, and my play counts are in the 1,000’s. This album of piano pieces is my top pick for classical piano.
Hilary Hahn – Bach: Violin Concertos
Hilary Hahn is brilliant. This album is really great. Been listening to this album in my playlist for about five years now, and it really has great sound to it. One of my favorite violin albums in the classical music world.
This album is really exciting to listen to. Makes for great dreams while sleeping at night. This is the third album in my playlist for sleep at night. I’m almost always asleep by the time this album starts to play, which means I’m dreaming about this time.
This album has been in my sleep playlist for years. It is one of my favorite piano and violin albums to listen to, even when I’m awake. This classical album is a masterpiece. The duo together of this album is great to listen to, and makes great sleep music when you want to get some shut eye.
This album is very good to listen to; even better to try sleeping while it is playing. One of my favorites.
Try using an Apple Home Pod to play your music in your bedroom, and set the playlist at night to get a good nights sleep. These classical albums will be sure to delight your ears, and makes for interesting dreams while you are sleeping. These albums have been playing for years, and have brought me countless hours of enjoyment while awake.
Listening to music while sleeping is a great way to keep your mind in performance mode. Listening to classical music is great way to expand your mind, and enlighten your whole life.
Using an Apple Home Pod, and setting a playlist with these classical artists to sleep to, it will make your life a lot better, it did mine.
Sleep set to music, makes great dreams. Keep Dreaming!!
Digital lifestyles make life interesting. There seems to be something for everyone these days, from fancy glasses, to contactless payment methods. Seems you have to be having fun with it, if you aren’t having fun with it, then you are doing it wrong.
The Gunnar glasses are really cool. Get your blue light blocking glasses, and start feeling better right quick. These will change your life, for the better.
These glasses changed my life for the better, you should try them out. They rock, and they look really good. They will make you smarter, or at least, look smarter.
It has been a week, strange, complex, complete with the usual rubbish. Seems like it is all the same junk, just a different day. I’ve been busy working on my projects, it has been fun, I guess!
Today finished up with a video. It isn’t great; yet, it is done. I’m looking for some new projects to work on, as my current status has reached boredom levels. Not much going, seems no one reads, I’m not special enough for anyone to care. My work is all treated with the same level of indifference; as though, I don’t matter at all.
They must be really special people, to be so important. I wish that I was as special as they are. Such is life. Not much going on, trying, failing, and keep rinsing and repeating. No one will ever care.
Seems, I’m wasting my time. Need some new dream. If such a thing is even possible anymore. They won’t make the situation better, its not any skin off their nose. So why would it ever matter. They are just as happy like it is.
Here is today’s project on YouTube. See what you think!
Maybe it is a shameless plug for my blog; well, I could use all the help I can get. These days are tough. Life can be rough somedays.
Seems pointless to write, no one cares. Yet, write I will. Someday people will wonder, what drove me mad. It wasn’t the coffee, but it might have been the damn Doritos. Maybe!
Needed some friends, a job, and girlfriend. Kinda too late for any of those things at this point in the game. Pity, I had hoped my life would change with time. Seems it’s going to take a long time. Going to have to be patient about it. Something has to change. Right?
Lessons from Henry Rollins, and the Rollins Band. It has been one of those days; thus, I’ve been listening to Rollins Band. And I find, it is just what I needed today. The album is: The End of Silence; and it rocks the world still to this day.
The song low self opinion came to mind today, maybe its because I see the high opinion others hold themselves in, and I’m not sure how they can reconcile the way they treat me, while holding their self opinions like they do.
Maybe they think, no one else besides them should have any self respect? Maybe! I would like to know what drives these people, and what unit of measurement they use to base their opinions upon.
Because from what I can see, there isn’t much rhyme or reason to it, just what ever floats their boat right now, this second. Seems the unit of their measurement should have some more substance to it, as though they seem to have holes in their persona. I would like to see them see through my eyes, and see themselves like I see them.
Sometimes, people have to see from a different perspective to really have understanding, and when they refuse to listen to anyone else, and they fail to see from any other perspective than their own, they become really cruel.
“It’s tearing us apart. I’ve got to get away, to see if I’m okay. Sometimes, things don’t work out.”
They didn’t need to do that to us. Life could have been really great! Seems they don’t care, it’s not any skin off their nose. They don’t want the change needed to treat everyone right, they only care about their sick, twisted point of view.
You have to wonder what self hatred they contain, because their disgust seems to be their crown. If they could see themselves like I see them, they would see another side to the problems.
Seems everyone has some level of self doubt; and sometimes, you have to get a grip on the situation, just to keep your sanity. Lord knows, I’m trying to keep a tight grip on this life of mine.
A person has to be able to live with their self respect held intact; otherwise, you just want to escape the oppression and leave. The way it makes me feel; like I’m all alone. When I try to find a familiar mind, someone that understands, I see how alone I am.
Those around me, they all doubt me. They push and shove, like they are the only ones that matter. They hold us down, drive us insane, and think nothing of it. It’s not any skin off their nose to hurt us. I wish they could see the harm they do, and how it hurts us.
Seems, they can not feel. As though, they are justified in doing what they do. It makes it difficult to keep my self respect intact, and like Henry Rollins says, “You don’t have to live like that!”
You have to be able to keep your self respect intact. Otherwise, why stay, and keep going like this? It seems pointless, useless, and worthless. There has to be something of self respect that makes staying worthy of doing.
Sometimes things don’t work out, sometimes happens all the time. It’s enough to tear you apart, most days it’s enough to make you wish that there were solutions to idiots like these.
They say, before you diagnose yourself with low self esteem, or depression; first make sure, you are not in fact surrounded by assholes.
You know that feeling when you are in the zone, that magical place where your flow, and style just naturally express themselves. Sometimes you can have that same thing with another person, where the feeling just flows, and feels good.
Sometimes when you get into the zone, it’s just pure magic, as though you could handle the situation just like it is, for what it is. Sometimes people have that zone, where it just feels right. What is missing from my life, is the people to share those feelings with. I know now, this can never come from other humans. They simply lack the fiber to be companions.
Yet, that doesn’t mean I should have to go without. There should have been someone in my life that made this feel less like torture. Seems, I haven’t been in the zone, not with anyone in a long time. I’ve lacked the life that could provide those things.
So, I get my kicks from computers. They do what they are told, when you tell them what to do. They don’t often talk back, or make a fuss about the work loads you give them, and they make pretty pictures. Sounds prefect!
I’m bored, this isolation is so thick, if it were shit; you couldn’t stir it with a stick. Wanted my life to be better a long time ago; seems the only thing I have gotten is a lot of pain. To the point, I feel my schooling as a masochist has completed to graduate levels.
However, I tire of the discomfort, the pain, and daily suffering that comes with it. It seems all too heavy to carry such burdens, because the proof is, they are heavy.
Seems there isn’t other shoulders to bear the burden, or carry on with me; such is life, one shouldn’t rail at the crosses they have to carry. This life, this living death, seems like it is truly unjust. I never wanted life to be like it is. I wanted a lot better for myself. Pity, seems no one cared what I wanted.
Far Too Late!!
Not much that can be done about it now, it’s far too late to make it right. These burdens have been far too much for a sane person to have to carry, and even more so for a disabled person.
Some geek, seems I didn’t have any other choice, as though, I have worked with the only tools I have, and learned to master them, at great expense. I wish others would take an interest in my work, as my work is the only thing that I have in this life; pity, it seems no one could care.
No one to talk with, nor spend time with me. This isolation is hurting me, yet; no one cares. They refuse to make it better, and although I have many times requested better treatment, they still refuse to make allowances for me.
I’m not sure what kind of world they want to make, but it doesn’t seem like one that is worth living in; yet, we want to change this to be something we can live with.
The solution is not to change to meet the conditions. Not at all, because they want warm sacks of shit, and nothing more from those among them. The only real option is to make them change their ways, or leave this world.
Being a geek, you learn a lot. You learn, it’s not possible to live like a rock star while coding HTML. There are good days behind the keyboard, I guess; if you like racking your brain, for pleasure.
The über geek is something to be looked up to, as they have the mastery of being computer guru’s that will someday make your life that much easier. You want to be nice to them, as mistreating them will make your life difficult.
Now for a word of advice, if you are wasting your life; stop! Stop now and start doing something with your time, energy, and effort to make life better for everyone someday.
We need people that will make a difference in life. Life has to get a lot better, and right quick too. Do what you can to make life worth living, for yourself and your kind. Don’t neglect the starving dog at his masters gate; as it predicts the ruin of the state.
No one is reading, thus; you get to eat what I dish up. This is what is on the table today. Hope you like it.
Seems the whole human race has a bad case of apathy. They show no concern, and maybe its because they have a lot of stress in their lives. Maybe they should learn a better way to deal with it? Something has to be done, people are starting to resemble zombies these days.
Wanted my life to get a lot better, thus far; it’s still sucking. Wish that I could change this stuff, and make it right. So much needs to be done, so much needs to change. Wanted life to be great.
Seems, no one is paying attention; as though, they don’t even care. What is it going to take for them to wake up, and start to get smart? Maybe we don’t want them to get wise; its easier to Tromp le Monde, and make it right later.
Not much going on, been alone a long time. No one cared.
Not much going on, been busy doing a lot, I mean a lot of programming. My site is coming alone very well, done a lot with it. Considering what I have to work with, its done well.
Still, I want better. Wish I could be living my best dreams. Thus, the need to change the world for the better. Too many people, they just don’t give a damn. Pity!
Needed a girlfriend, feeling like, damn it. No one cared. Nice move.
Been alone a long time, this isolation is so thick, if it were shit; you couldn’t stir it with a stick. Life has to change, and right quick!