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Status: Bored Isolation

This isolation, it’s been real. . .

Not much going on. Same shit, different day. No one seems to give a damn. They don’t care. I’m not sure how they live like they do. I wouldn’t even call it living. They think highly of it, it must mean something to them.

I’m not sure how I’m going to deal with life. It has been kicking my dog. Some days are better than others, today wasn’t bad. Feels still so heavy to deal with. Not able to change my situation for the life of me. They don’t want the situation to be different. I’m not sure why?

This isolation is all I know. Not much going. Needed my teeth fixed. Feeling like, damn it. Wish it were tons better. Not sure how to make life better at this point. No one listens. Feeling like, damn.

Just money won’t fix my problems. Not at all. I really need more than a job, a girlfriend, and friends. It wouldn’t help my status, because what I’m lacking is respect and honor, and dignity.

I’m bored with the way this is. Not able to change it. I’ve tried. The way things are, it doesn’t matter what I do. They don’t seem to care. Nothing I have done is good enough for them. They treat it like it is worthless to them. My effort doesn’t matter to them. They couldn’t care about the effort I put forth.

I’m not really sure, what they care about. What is it they respect?

I’m bored with the way this is. Not getting what I need. Not getting what I want. This isolation is all I know. Wish it were better. Seems to be lost somewhere between this life and the dead sea of ether.

There should have been somewhere I fit in, or belong. I have to wonder if anyone out there loves me? There are days, it sure doesn’t feel like it. Not sure how to change this shit.

Being a misfit is sometimes it’s own reward. Somedays, its all I can do to be kind. That seems to be an act of rebellion these days.

Because there are day, people don’t listen.

Ghosted To Death

Seems, the world has ghosted me to death. Tired of them treating me like I don’t matter. They don’t seem to care. Pity!

Something has to change. Today will not be different in a hundred yesterdays. I’ve tried for years.

It should have changed by now!

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Tired. . .

Not much going on, life is; things are. Trying to deal with it. Got a real headache this evening. Trying to nurse it back to being better. Something has to change, and right quick.

Seems, people don’t give a damn about my projects. They don’t matter to them personally; they couldn’t care. I think, the human race is wasting my time. I’m tired of trying to get through to brain-dead humans that are too dumb to think to start with.

Pity! Life could have been really good. It should have been really good. It didn’t have to total crap for twenty years. I’m bored with the status quo of this world. The life, they all seem to be so fond of, its not living. It is more of a living death. Look at them, study them.

If you look closely at the way most of them are living, its not really living. Most people just exist. They are content, and happy with just existing. I’m pretty sure, they don’t know better.

The AI bots, they seem to have trouble thinking. If you asked them to think something they have never been told, they would have a real hard time ever coming up with something they don’t already know.

Really, you could define intelligence by one’s ability to think something they don’t already know that was told to them through any methods. Try thinking something you have no knowledge about, and no experience with. It would have to be something that isn’t obvious.

The world is a mess. So many problems in today’s world. It doesn’t take a rocket scientist to figure out, the world has some serious problems. Not sure, they could fix what is wrong; but they would have to understand where the problems are. I think, they lack the intelligence to do something about it.

A walk in strange woods

What is art? Who makes art these days? Seems a lot of people are making content, but does that mean it really is art? So many today are told to be good consumers, and devour everything they are fed as quickly as possible and never be satisfied.

So what would quench their thirst? It would have to be something with value, that isn’t treated like worthless trash. There has been a steady de-valuation of peoples lives, and work. It is getting to the point, this world is going to be worthless in no time. We really must do something to put value and meaning back into our lives.

I’m tired of the problems in this world. Most people don’t want solutions. Most, are content to just exist, with any conditions they are given. Seems, we have to get back to really living. Before its too late, someone is going to have to start to care. Really!!!!

So many today are unhappy, seems no one cares anymore. Everyone is watching out for number one. That thinking has led to a lot of people being de-valued. Because people sometimes fail, or don’t meet the standards.

What standards should we have? Seems people today set the standards to such a level, that you would be hard pressed to be able to just exist as a warm sack of shit. Life has to be more than that. Life is meant to be lived. Too many snowflakes and not enough people with some real guts!!

Life has to change, before its too late. Be the change. Get tough.

-C

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Total Crap

This video was a project today. Kinda bored, not much going on. This video is total crap, I know; so you don’t have to tell me my shit is shit. You know?

Yet, here it is. It will waste eight minutes of your life, with no real purpose or meaning. Thus, if you are bored, you can watch it.

Not much going on. Waiting for it.

Bored, so damn bored. Isolation sucks. Not much going on.

Maybe it will get better? You never know, life has its ways. Maybe things will change, you never know. Wish it were better. Needed better about ten years ago, although; it’s better than it was, it is still not great. Wanted great!

Enjoy wasting your time.

-c

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A Cage: This Vacuum

I didn’t have many needs, despite the fact I have lived in poverty for twenty years. The needs I did have were pretty important that they be met, seems no one could give a damn!

This isn’t to happen like this again. The problems I’ve had to deal with, are not acceptable; not for me, not for anyone. Life should be better than this, for everyone!

There is no excuse for the way they have treated me. It has been unkind, and cruel. It seems, they didn’t care. Which really makes me think this has extended into actual abuse. It is certainly torment having to live like I am. Does psychological torment equal torture?

What is truth?

Someone Once Said:

Not much going on, this isolation, tough stuff. Damn tired of it.

Twenty years, same crap; different day!!

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Life Sucks!

This life

The isolation sucks. No one cared. This world is empty. The humans in this world are all AI bots, they are mindless sacks of shit. They are nothing more than living clay with spirits dead. They are not real living beings. They treat me like shit, and I am tired of the abuse.

Wanted a lot better. Bored with the way life is. This should have changed by now. It’s not any different. Isolation is all I know. Wish it were going better. No one to talk with. No one to spend time with me. The way things are going, damn tired of being alone like I am.

They don’t seem to give a shit. It doesn’t bother them; guess, its not any skin off their nose. Bored with the way things are. Tired of being like this. Not living my life. This life is a living death. They live like damn zombie cat shit. They are sick. Damn the world like it is.

No one here is really living. Damn tired of the world like it is. No one seems to care, they don’t listen, they don’t read. They don’t think. They couldn’t put thoughts together to save themselves.

Pity. This has to stop. It has to end. This has gone far enough. The damn farce has to end. This shit must stop. I’m tired of the way things are. Wanted a lot better. Bored. So damn bored.

Here is a photo. This was a few years back, maybe ten, fifteen years ago. I’m thinking, this life has been rough going a long time. It is time for a vacation. Hate the world like it is. The human race sucks.

Joshua Tree Circa 2008

Bored. So damn bored. The isolation. Its strange, it doesn’t bother them to be alone. They are not even real. Otherwise, these conditions would never be acceptable. Not ever.

You would think, if someone brought it to their attention, they could have fixed this crap. It’s been twenty years of this, nothing is better. It is still the same shit, different day.

Bored. Needed life to change. Maybe they will get what is coming to them? Maybe! Tomorrow Wendy. . . Concrete Blond

Not sure why this is like it is, you would think; they would listen? I guess, its too difficult for them to listen. Maybe they shouldn’t be in charge of anything, and never anything important. Damn the human race. They are ruthless cruel. I wanted a lot better.

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Projects In The Pan

Looks like I’m a happy camper; there are a few projects in the pan, and on the fire this week. Not that my projects are on fire, but at least they are on the burner for something to be doing.

Been working on solving some problems, some of them need solved. Not sure the best way to execute my solutions right now. Need a clear path to success. Been thinking about what success means to me.

At what level should one base their success upon? From where I’ve been coming from, this would look like success to me. Yet, I still do not believe I’ve reached the full height of what could be done. There is still a lot more work to be done.

Took my portrait today. Looking at how things are changing. There have been some changes made, a lot of them for the better. How much is enough? At what point does it ever become enough for me?

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I’ve been working on something. It isn’t ready yet, maybe soon. I’m not sure if my meaning will come from what I do, it seems I’m not as useful as I would like to be. Somehow, I have to make a difference in life, and I’m not going to settle for ordinary.

What makes a person extraordinary? What qualities would someone have to have to be more than ordinary? Seems, some people will only continue to hate, despite what is good for them.

Yeah, but I want to be loved. I guess, it is necessary to show some love first. That is something that I read recently. I wonder, because a lot of people have been turning me away, yet I’m not being mean, nor rude. The human race seems to be confused.

How do we make them understand that life has to change for the better? Something has to be done to help people adapt to the changes that need made. But how?

People don’t like discomfort, nor do they like pain. So there has to be a way to adapt to change that isn’t painful, with the least amount of discomfort possible. Yet, they don’t give a rats ass about my discomfort, nor the pain I’ve been in. Seems like the standards they hold only apply to themselves.

I’m not sure what projects are going to come my way, yet I’m doing what I can with what I have. There needs to be something that makes my life extraordinary, more than just living like zombie cat shit. That isn’t the lifestyle I want for myself.

It is important to take care of yourself, and be kind in the process. Sometimes, you have to take care of other people, because by showing love, you can receive love. What is truth?

What I know, this vacuum holds me tight, the isolation, and the way people ghost me; doesn’t make my life better. Seems, the human race has some lessons to be learned. I wish, that they would wake up to what life could be like for everyone. We are living in times, that could be really great, if it were being managed correctly.

Not much going on, snow day today. Waiting for a miracle.

Christopher Thomas

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Accomplishments This Year

Here is a rundown of my year so far to date.

Accomplishments

This year has been busy. I’ve done a lot in a short period of time. More than most people do in an entire year. Below are the things I’ve been working on this year.

Videos

This year, I have made six videos. Some of them turned out really pretty good. Not that anyone noticed, they didn’t care.

Website

Countless hours working on websites: Below are some of the stuff I’ve been doing with my websites.

Misfit.Ctopher.Me

  • Added Like Buttons to gallery photos
  • Added Cookie Consent Banner
  • Algorithm For Did You Know Posts
  • CSS Theme Switcher
  • Javascript Jump Menu php, MySQL
  • BETA coin flip written in PHP
  • CSS media queries for different devices
  • Lazy load images for Gallery photos and Gallery
  • Graphic redesign for footer
  • Added Page For Books with links
  • Solved Javascript onload problems

My Day (This site moved) now at:

misfit.ctopher.me/myday/

  • Designed Entire Site
  • Programmed entire site from scratch
  • Made photo upload pages, and edit page
  • Lazy Load for images on most pages
  • List View and worked out dates for grouping
  • Footer pages
  • By-Day pages with only that days photos
  • Pagination of By-Day pages
  • Cron Jobs Written

Misfit-Writers – Not Finished

  • Wrote Journal App in php
  • Made auto save javascript for database
  • programmed entire site from scratch
  • ToDo: Multi User Functions

There is a lot more I’ve done, but this is what I’m willing to talk about.

Writing

This year I have written 32 blog posts for mydigitalchaos.blog. Some of them are pretty good. They all have a photo attached with them, and have been carefully written and edited.

  • Thinking Outside The Box
  • Notes From Earth
  • Set XYZZY
  • Visions For The Future – Essay
  • Visions For The Future – The Problem With Progress Today
  • Do Something Great
  • It’s Time To Wake Up
  • Writing Levels And How To Go From Average To Great
  • A Life I Used To Have
  • A Little Racy
  • Thoughts About Value, Meaning, and Being of Worth To Others
  • What Is Advantageous?
  • Creative Arts – In Peril Or Ready To Bloom?
  • Shot In The Dark
  • More Dog Balls
  • One World Government
  • Get Your Creative Seeds and Long Term Inspiration
  • How To Be Successful With Your Journals
  • Posse Bonus Post
  • Depressed because of bots, buggers, and Digital Oppression
  • Why Quality Food Matters and Makes Life Enjoyable
  • Humans Are Shameful
  • Digital Lifestyle of A Geek
  • Today’s Lesson: Quiet Introspection
  • Quick Note
  • High Rise Of The Mind
  • Classical Corner: Music To Sleep With
  • What I Want
  • From A Dark Place
  • 8 Steps To Beautify Your Heart, Mind, and Soul
  • In The Flux
  • A Brief Guide On How To Write

Photography

I’ve taken photos for myself, and my websites. Some of them turned out pretty well. I’ve developed skill and talent with taking photos.

I’ve also done some custom artwork, and a little painting.

Conclusion:

This year is off to a great start. Maybe the momentum will continue to build. Maybe I can make something good that people will use. I hope to gain some skills, and talent from what I’m doing.

Check them out.

Written by: Christopher Thomas, A Real Misfit

Photo Credit: Photo by Persnickety Prints on Unsplash

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Bored, Again. . .

Not much going on. Life, this life they live and seem to enjoy; it is not really living. It is more of a living death, they however seem to enjoy it a great deal. To each their own.

Been almost busy. Been working on a project. It is coming along. I am kind of taking my time with it. Maybe just enjoying building it. It was however kicking my butt for a week, that pesky javascript can be a real pain in the butt to learn when you don’t understand how it works.

I am however, starting to get the hang of it. Yea! I have made a lot of progress in the last four years. If you saw where I was at a few years ago, and compared to where I am today; it is a big difference.

I guess, it is something to be proud of, having come so far. It has taken a lot of time, and effort. It is good, because it has given me something to do. I couldn’t imagine what life would have been like otherwise.

Need to start doing a lot more photography. Something has to start getting a lot better. The times they are rough, you got to be tough to make it work.

I have been making it work. Such is life. Not much going on. So damn bored. This isolation has been kicking my butt so much worse than javascript ever did me.

Life is. Things are. Deal with it!

Not much going on. People seem to be ghosting me. Kind of have hurt feelers over the whole thing. This isn’t the right way to have treated me. Feeling like, damn it. This life.

Wish it were going better. I could use some company.

Be more!

The world is a twisted place. Live best you can. Someone has to start making life better for everyone, you know?

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New Video In The Flux

My Digital Chaos has a new video out, check it out. This was some fun to make, not much going on. Life is very quiet these days, which some people feel is a good thing.

At least the coffee is good these days.

In The Flux – My Digital Chaos

Here is the video embedded from YouTube. Enjoy. Check out my other websites, and see my day in photos at: My Day.

Something has to change, and right quick. You know?

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Total Hotties

There are some beautiful people in this world. Nothing compares to the beauty of a mind that is well conditioned; however, there are some that seem to be great examples of beauty.

leleberlin @ Instagram

This lady has some style, and class. I think she must work with really good photographers, because her photos have a unique style and feel to them. Great shots, great lighting, and lots of style.

Like her style, and grace. . .

Beautiful linadiaa @ Instagram

This is one example of what a woman should look like. She has a unique look, and has some cool shots.

Total Hottie. . .

Alina Schiano @ Instagram

This beautiful redhead is really something. She has fashion sense, and great taste. I have reason to believe she has a mind of her own, and isn’t afraid to tell ya what she thinks.

Rissii @ Instagram

I fell in love with her freckles. This redhead is really something, style, drive, determination, and grace. She has something to say, and says it very well.

Valentivitell @ Instagram

This snow angel is something amazing. I’ve never seen anyone with a hot look like she has. This is 10+ good looks!

Total 10+ hottie here. That is a good start to how a lady should look!

These are stunning examples of real beauty. I don’t know them personally. One can only hope in real life, they aren’t all hot messes.

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Boredom Feels Heavy

Life is. Things are.

You have to get a grip. No one reads anymore. They couldn’t care. They want mindless thoughts, with no real purpose. Damn cats if you ask me. Life is. Things are. Deal with it. Not much going on.

Been working on projects, been stuck alone for a week. It wasn’t as productive as it could have been, had to dog watch. They like a lot of attention. They seem to be full of it. Taking care of two boxers, almost a full time job.

My projects are coming along. Most things are going okay. Javascript gave me fits for a few days, but that is solved now. Thanks to Google. Seems any technical question one could have has been solved somewhere.

Bored. Not much going on. Life is. They don’t care. Wasn’t a problem they wanted to solve. They seem busy with other stuff, these days; no one gives a damn. Bored with the status quo.

Life has to get better, it really does. Tired of the way this is. No one to talk with, nor spend time with me. They seem to be perfectly content with the way this is. It doesn’t bother them for me to be alone, and isolated like I am. Not only that, there is the other problem: It seems like everyone is ghosting me. Damn it.

Tired of the world like it is. They could have been kind. You know? Tired of wasting my effort on people that won’t listen.

In Other News:

I’ve lost weight. I am down to 167, which is great! About time, been heavy far too long. Glad to see the weight coming off like it should.

Bored. Visit me. I have coffee!!

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Not Much Going On

Life is, Things are!

Life has been busy, doing lots of programming. Maybe its going pretty good. If I can keep the work strait. Its been a day, not much going on. Life seems to be made up of same crap, different day.

Here is a photo from today, it came out okay, I guess.

Self Portrait, Yours Truly

Not much going on. Been busy; but has progress been made? Maybe, a little bit; if you think about the number of lines of code, maybe its been productive.

Need a real life. This one feels stale. Sometimes you need a new dream, this dream really feels stale. Been working my butt off for years, and haven’t seen success from my efforts.

Everyone needs some success sometimes. Wish that I could get what I need most. Wanted my life to change, and be better. Its not too much to ask for, yet; it seems impossible to get results.

I’m bored. Not much going on. Life is. Things are. Deal with it!

In other news, only had one cup of coffee today, my butt is dragging and lagging like crazy tonight. Tomorrow, coffee!!

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Humans Suffer From Apathy

Seems the whole human race has a bad case of apathy. They show no concern, and maybe its because they have a lot of stress in their lives. Maybe they should learn a better way to deal with it? Something has to be done, people are starting to resemble zombies these days.

Wanted my life to get a lot better, thus far; it’s still sucking. Wish that I could change this stuff, and make it right. So much needs to be done, so much needs to change. Wanted life to be great.

Seems, no one is paying attention; as though, they don’t even care. What is it going to take for them to wake up, and start to get smart? Maybe we don’t want them to get wise; its easier to Tromp le Monde, and make it right later.

Not much going on, been alone a long time. No one cared.

Christopher Thomas – 2020

Not much going on, been busy doing a lot, I mean a lot of programming. My site is coming alone very well, done a lot with it. Considering what I have to work with, its done well.

Still, I want better. Wish I could be living my best dreams. Thus, the need to change the world for the better. Too many people, they just don’t give a damn. Pity!

Needed a girlfriend, feeling like, damn it. No one cared. Nice move.

Been alone a long time, this isolation is so thick, if it were shit; you couldn’t stir it with a stick. Life has to change, and right quick!

Written by Christopher Thomas, a 42bitpi Geek