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What my work meant to me….

After having been throughly reduced to nothing. The only real tangible piece left in my life is my work. It’s the one thing that has kept me sane through periods of having absolutely nothing left to live for. Being that I have no friends, no wife, no girlfriend, no job, and no one to talk with, it’s been the only thing that helps.

It seems my work has been totally disregarded as being worthless trash. It had been my hopes that people would care, or that they would notice. I guess that’s what happens when you work in a vacuum like I have the last twenty years. Had hoped that people would care, or give a damn. One of the problems today is that no one reads anymore. No one takes the time to think, or read, or use logic and reason.

I pity them. Because they could have had some real conversations about what was written. But they didn’t want to talk about anything that I had written, not because it’s bad; no it’s only for the sole reason it’s something I had done. The problem isn’t the work in itself, the problem is that it’s my work. They don’t want me. Or anything that I may do.

They didn’t want to listen. No matter how good my points were made, they refused to think it through. Had anyone else done what I’ve done they would have shit themselves. Because it’s my work they feel it’s worthless. It’s my belief that they are really unkind. They could have cared.

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Cause of Sadness

I know this is going to be difficult for you to understand. I will try to put it in simple terms you can understand. There is such a thing as Emotional Starvation. It’s very painful. When you are like a flower in vase with your roots cut off and dying of strangulation. It’s worse than you can begin to understand.

I’ve strived diligently to try and make it possible for you to understand me and my kind. But it seems that it’s too deep for your shallow minds to comprehend. You just want to have fun and laugh about everything without giving anything any consideration. It’s sad. I pity you. You are not aware of your own condition.

I had wanted friends and a girlfriend. Now it’s too late for those things, because it’s become my realization that all of you are magnetic ink. Digital bits on tape. I wish that you would have been programmed to think, or understand. It seems you can do neither.

There is still this problem with emotional starvation. No one has touched me in six months, a year? I don’t have friends, companions, girlfriends, wife, lover, job, or love in my life. It seems it’s just too much to ask that I be shown the same respect you show your own kind.

I fear this is going to result in war. You can not hold the tides of what has been done to me. The truth will be known. I wish that you would have followed along with my journey, or my story. But it seems you couldn’t care. Pity. Life could have been better for everyone. Life could still be made right, but they will never be able to make up to me the wrongs done to me. It’s caused far too much harm in my personal life to be something that I’m just going to forget about.

Did you think that I was just joking that my needs required having others in my life that would spend time with me, and help me to grow and learn, and become better?

You would do well to start making changes. Like being kind.

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Modern Sorrows….

Everyone is pretty unhappy. I know. I feel your pain. I do. Lord knows, I’ve got enough of my own. One of the biggest problems that keeps happening in today’s society is the problem with this existential crisis. Things are being loved, and people are being used. Everyone is in a very judgmental frame of mind. They don’t want to take the time to understand.

One of the problems that this existential crisis is causing is that people feel emotional starvation. It’s eating us alive worse than any flesh eating bacteria. People are starved for connection, for peace of mind. I see that humans are having a tough time. I know it’s rough.

Try to connect with your fellow beings. Otherwise, I suggest you get a dog. There are some ways that a person can make things better, however I feel that no one wants to listen to logic and reason about how to deal with these problems.

Everyone wants the instant fix, the quick fix, and everything is more instant than interesting. Pity. This could have been avoided in whole. There is still time to make it better. If you just want to. Take the time, find out. The love you save could be your own.

There is more to life. Humans aren’t ready for the basic stuff, much less anything better. If you are strong enough, rise from your slumber and help your fellow beings along the way. We all need each other.

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Doubts? Stone Cold Hard Facts!!

The chances of me becoming an internet celebrity is nill. As in actually “Null” So I have to ask myself what my purpose here is going to be. One of the thoughts that I keep going back to is who I want to influence. And to answer that question one must ask themselves how much change they want to make.

Since I want to make a significant dent in the universe, with the biggest impact possible; then the answer to that question would be to influence the people that influence others. There are big changes that need made. It seems this world has become a cruel ruthless place to exist, and I’m not so sure everyone is actually existing.

It feels like a lot of these people are living like zombies and quite content to continue down that path. There has to become a point that is an end and a new beginning. Where everything gets better for everyone in good ways. I’m not so sure that people will want that. It means they won’t be able to make lame excuses for themselves.

After two, almost three years of running my blog and my website; I have found mostly disillusion with the process. It’s not half as glamorous as they would lead one to believe. While it looks cool in the movies, it’s not really as great as they would lead one to believe.

Also having real life connections and positive role models is vital. It is most certain that one needs connections in real life in face to face communication.

Make life kind again.

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Did You Know…

There is a whole page on my site devoted to did you know quips. But that isn’t what i want to talk about. This did you know is brought to you by the sky. Did you know that clouds can melt? Have the conditions ever been just right that you watch the very clouds melt right before your eyes?

It’s possible. I’ve seen it first hand. I guess if the conditions are just right, anything could be possible. While not everything is probable. There is a lot more that could be possible. Just keep that in mind. So my suggestion is you spend some time this summer watching the sky and see if you can spot any clouds melting away.

It’s quite a thing to see. Now if we could just make some of the problems we have melt like those clouds. Then life could be better for everyone. It’s possible. There would be new clouds to form, but even they are not permeant. Make the best of your life. Do the best you can with what you have. Don’t give up. Fight it up.

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The Blue Sea….

The blue sea, where the wind blows across the top of the water. The fish know nothing of the wind, maybe except flying fish. The whales and dolphins know. The birds know. But the fish in the depths of the sea? They haven’t a clue. Maybe they don’t care at all? Does the crab care if the wind blows?

Maybe we should tell them the sky is blue. Maybe we should tell them there are a million ways to live. Sentient beings should all know there is more to life. Maybe some mad man will put a song out about it. Everyone needs a song to sing. What’s the matter here?

Some friendly tree, that knows more than me. Maybe there is something to learn, some cosmic joke that the stars all sing; maybe the fish in the sea know that tune? What is this world that we don’t know all the facts? We are born to love, yet these sheep have been taught a lesson of hate.

Maybe the goats are too stubborn to give up their love? It may not be perfect, but at least they be trying. The rest just follow the herd, going about watching tv, and talking about people in mindless shallow ways. Where be the love and kindness? They have pity on their lips, but not in their hearts.

Maybe we need some whale to teach them a lesson? Maybe there will be sea monsters that rise from the depths and give a damn. Some flying pterodactyl that doesn’t like robots? Everyone needs a hero, these days they are few and far between. Maybe we need the ubermensch?

Something is wrong with this world. I know not what, however I’m at my wits end about finding a way to make it better. Something isn’t right with the way people are living? How are you living? Really how are people living? Is your life good and are you strong? Come to the aid of your fellow beings. Be kind.

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Uniformity: Social Links

In the process of creating some uniformity, I have simplified my handles online. Now that everything can be found at the following addresses.

Instagram: @mydigitalchaos

Twitter: @mydigitalchaos

Hopefully my creative efforts will work out. I’ve spent the last two and a half years working in almost total and complete isolation. It would be nice to talk with someone that understands. Working in a vacuum isn’t much fun, and it’s sometimes downright painful to have to endure.

I hope that you will reach out and contact me. There is still much work to be done in this project. There are some plans of doing a book giveaway in the near future. Stay tuned to see when it happens.

Still, one doesn’t understand the life I’ve lived. Maybe it’s time to make some changes?

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The Boomers Have It All Wrong

Truth!!

The world is a mess. Trying to conform to an insane world, makes you insane. The lies and deceit that make up what is normal is taking its toll. They are using double binds to complete the crazy making process. Obviously the boomers have it all wrong.

I’ve read things about Generation X, some say they are Nihilist and that they don’t give a shit about anyone but their own individual selfs. I want to paint a different picture, the problem isn’t that Gen X is a bad thing. The problem is we reject the conformity of the previous generations, that and we don’t stand for their lies.

Conformity to an insane world, makes you insane. The boomers have tried to make everyone conform to their insane ideas and way of life. Which results in looking like we are crazy because we can not reconcile their insanity with what we know and believe to be true.

The boomers live life like zombies. They want warm bodies with clean faces, they don’t want more than that from anyone. They think a life well lived is a living death. Jesus words ring true here, “Let the dead bury the dead.” We want to live. We want life better for everyone.

A Better Life

No one wants a living death. We want life to be better. This mindless zombie shit should come with no excuses. They are Wrong. The boomers have it all wrong. The living dead don’t want anyone with a dirty face. Which is hypocrisy. They have never had a dirty face, because a living death isn’t living. Therefore we reject their suspect bullshit.

Because life is meant to be lived, a living death isn’t living. There are mistakes, and problems, but without having the experience, then life isn’t worthy of living. They want to take all the fun out. And we can not stand for that. And people that make problems because they want us to fail are cruel.

No one can stand for the insanity they try to force upon us. Because, living a life that is no better than a living death is suicide. Its pointless and stupid. We must reject their stupidity at the way they want to live. Because to each their own, if they want a living death, then they should live that way. However forcing that upon their offspring is stupid.

We want more to life. We want to live, because we love life. Life gets better with use. Don’t keep life in a special box. Take it out, dust it off, and live your life. Special occasions are all the time. Our life is meant to be used. Life is not meant to be kept in a sealed box. It gets worse with being stored for the future.

For A Better Future

Make life better for everyone, be kind. Stop trying to force your insanity on us. We won’t accept it. We don’t want your idiot rules and your living death. Therefore we want life better, not their zombie cat shit.

Those that are remembered as fighting a war against zombies and idiots will be Gen X. They are the warriors and the Misfits that bring forth change. We can not allow this mess to continue, it stops here. So the future can be beautiful again.

Because war is ugly, and brings out bad things in people. This war has to end with a better world for everyone. Clearly the boomers have it all wrong, life is a gift. Use it!

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Written by: Ctopher Thomas, founder MyDigitalChaos